Wow...it's amazing what a good night's sleep will do.
Hubby i working night shifts so I've had solo night duty with the boy. Then I had the day shift as well while hubby slept. Now that he has a couple of nights off I am able to sleep. I slept for almost 10 hours straight. Holy cow...
I had the energy to venture out into the world by myself with the little squirt...for the very first time. And we both survived.
Life is insane. I've completely unplugged from what is going on in the world. I did hear about The One's Nobel Peace prize. It sounded about right...after all if Jimmy Carter can get one the standards are obviously pretty low.
I spend my days changing diapers, feeding, and worrying about the boy. He doesn't seem to sleep very long if he's not in our arms so it's tough to get much done. I seem to have time to do a load of laundry and make formula and my day is over.
I wish that I didn't have to make formula but my breasts let me down in the breast feeding department. It never occurred to me that I wouldn't be able to breast feed my baby and the realization that I couldn't was truly heart breaking. I felt like a total and complete failure. Taking the breastfeeding class they talk so down on formula that you think it's a poison...so when I had no choice I was of course devastated.
But it is formula or he starves to death...and he's doing good - gaining lots of weight and finally seems to be getting his bowels under control. He's even started sleeping more at night - at least the last three nights.
I'll try not to make this into an all mommy blog all the time...although I don't have much else in my life other than baby right now. =)